I have been ignoring one important problem for too long. And it is approaching like an iceberg to Titanic.
Of course, I mean the whole, I don't want to have sex with you, because my feelings toward you have changed, but I am too much of a wuss to say anything, so I am going to have to do it thing is against everything I believe in.
I would advise any friend who came to me with this problem to just not do it if they don't want to. Not so easy though.
This puts the cunnilingus problem to shame.
I don't even know if I'll feel like this when I get there. But just talking about it over text is giving me waves of repulsion.
This is just so unfair to both him and me in varying degrees.
I sometimes sense that he knows. But I can't blame him for trying to fix it.
I can though blame him for acting so evasively and cautiously throughout the time we were talking. I don't know if it is Ochoa who convinced me that he was at fault, or it is me thinking that he is at fault.
Is finding fault ultimately a subjective standard?
Well, all things aside, the problem does not go away when I come back either. I put myself into this situation, I have to take myself out of it.
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