A better place

I am feeling better today.

Yes, it happened again. And I am glad. Not in a closure way, but I think I figured some things out.

First of all, it was much better this time. I need to stop trying to make everything be so serious. There is no reason why this shouldn't be relaxed, and fun for me. And for him too. 

There is no reason for me to get into his stuff with other people, or compare myself to others. Because honestly it is out of my powers. There are some things that I simply cannot help. I think I have come to terms with this. 

And I want to get to know him better. I don't think I know anything real about him. This is the way that I can stop pretending, and see where my real feelings get me. 

This is doable. Or so I think right now.