Disillusionment

So I know I should have gone to bed like 3 hours ago, but I've gotta write this down.

I don't know why, but I seem to be getting disillusioned with all the guys that have been entering my life recently. And by this, I mean pretty fast.
They seem really exciting at first, and I am willing to risk everything for them with my new -I don't give a shit I want to experience everything- self. But as we saw with the most recent incidents with Z, they can't really keep my interest for very long.
They are just too persistent, I get annoyed by them trying to get closer to me -both physically and emotionally-.
Ugh when he called me 'my baby', I swear the hair at the back of my neck just stood up. It was kind of horrifying. And with the whole snapchat bullshit, I just want to tell him to fuck off.
And then there is B bootycalling me at some weird hour in a random night, right after Swebb told him they can't hook up anymore. Like, fuck that. I don't even get offended or hurt that he is trying to substitute me for her again, I just get really fucking annoyed. By how insensitive they can be, and how childish and low.
I honestly can't want more to get the hell away from all of them, the whole alphabet of them.
I am just glad I came to this realization with Z before I fucked everything up.

On a different note, the sophomores are arriving, and they seem to be relatively interesting. Maybe they can stir things up.
Mitch, for instance, seems to be awesome. I can't wait to get to know him more. I can't really see him in that light right now though, seems to be more of a younger brother type guy. Well, even if he did get my attention in that way, I doubt he could keep it for very long, given the recent record.

Tugce thinks this is because I didn't give myself a chance to be away from guys for a while after Alber. She says I threw myself at them because they were new and I was excited about all the new experiences I could have. And then I came to the realization that they were mostly shit, and now I am overly disillusioned and let down. I don't know, maybe she's right.
I am just sick of being pulled in all directions when I think of the guys in my life right now. It is tiring, and it is nauseating me a little to be honest.